That Scale!!!!

So I watched a video the other day of a Coach that was walking around with her actual weight written on her forehead. I stopped scrolling immediately because I could not wait to hear what she had to say and why she was doing this.  Her name is Jessica Bowser Nelson.  She is a cast member of the program that I was doing called Insanity Max 30.  She talked about what the scale can do to us and how those 3 little numbers can change our entire day.  She hit the nail on the head for me.  It spoke VOLUMES to me!!!  I sat down and looked through the file on my computer that I call......"Pam's Fitness Journey" and the other file called "Coach Pam".  Scrolling and looking through pictures and thinking about who I was back then.  I thought maybe this would be a good time to do a little bit of sharing.

In the picture above, the picture in the left top corner was my first passport picture.  I never told anyone that when I received my first passport back I was in tears!  We were feeling led to go on a mission trip to Ukraine and of course you have to have a passport and at this point in my life, I was always hiding behind the camera and NEVER wanted my picture taken.  It was my heaviest weight.  We had been through 2 rounds of infertility treatments and I had surgery and we were basically told we would never have anymore children.  It was a very difficult time!  I was depressed and so down.

The photo below that one is the "updated" picture that I needed in my passport on our first trip to India 2002.  I was a few pounds down.  I was still NOT exercising.  I was eating whatever, whenever and however much I wanted and life was life and I was still hiding behind the camera and taking the pictures and not being in the pictures.  I was in another country that I could not get the outfits that everyone else was getting and wearing because they (in India/Nepal) did not have them in my size.  It was a little embarrassing.  I didn't own a scale.  I didn't offer to ever get on a scale.  I even worked in medical offices and would NEVER get on one "just to see".  That was not a number I wanted to see and in my head, if I didn't have to see it, I wouldn't have to deal with it!  That is a normal reaction for most people.

In 2003, I believe,  I have incredible friends named Michelle and Paul that encouraged me to run.  We had joined a new YMCA and they were avid runners and she just wanted me to run on the treadmill so bad.  I gave EVERY excuse and she finally told me to run for 1 MINUTE and she would leave me alone.  I ran for one minute, I literally thought I would die on the treadmill,  and that was all that it took.  I was HOOKED!  I was signing up and running every race I could find!!!!  Running was GREAT!  Guess what????? The weight started coming off!  I was in HEAVEN!!!!

We were blessed with Kaleb and things were great.  I had run a full marathon and 2 or 3 half marathons.  Life was awesome and the running was just wonderful!

THEN WE MOVED!!!!


The weight started back.  I relaxed my exercise and the nutrition.  In comes Beachbody.  I was asked to join a "Challenge Group".  I had no idea what in the world a Challenge Group was.  I was in 110%!  Down 30 pounds and that was all it took!  I actually LOVED THE SCALE at that point!  I was happy to get on it!  I would actually look forward to it!  CRAZY!!!  I would weigh at the gym. I didn't own a scale at home and that was ok.

TODAY- The bigger picture- Current situation!  I love the camera. I will photo-bomb Kaleb's picture all the time.  We take LOTS of pictures in our family.  I still don't have a scale at home.  I had purchased one and found out very quickly that it was not a good idea for me to have it at home.  We had a weight loss challenge at work and it came to work and has been here ever since.  I determine how I feel based on my clothes, how I look in the mirror, the roundness in my face etc.  You and I both know that if the scale goes up by a few pounds here and there it will totally ruin your day!!!!!!

There is absolutely NO REASON for a number on a device to determine how you feel about yourself!!!!!

"Work Hard

Play Hard

Get Results Hard!" (Shaun T)

I now put in the work.
I know what to eat and how to eat.
I don't mind getting my weight at the doctors office.
I will weigh when I start a new program.
I DO NOT LET A NUMBER DETERMINE MY DAY!!!!