Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Shadows!!!!

Not to long ago I took a questionnaire on an app that I had down loaded.  In my head I already knew exactly what the answer was going to be.  Some of the questions were like this.....
Do you avoid mirrors?
Do you avoid having your picture made?
Are you comfortable in your own skin?
Do you avoid the scale?
Does the scale number determine your attitude?
Well, of course I could say yes to most of these.  I do avoid mirrors and scales and even seeing my shadow when I am outside.  You have to understand that I was "heavy and unhealthy" for so long that it more or less became a habit.  If I didn't have to look in the mirror or see a weight or heaven forbid, have my picture made, I was good. 
About a week ago, I was at the park and running.  In my zone as usual.  Doing what I do.  For whatever reason, I looked down at the ground and OH MY GOODNESS!!!!  There is was.  There is was dark, on the ground with the sun behind me.  I literally stopped in my tracks.  It was my shadow.  That thing I don't like to see and always so critical of myself and there it was for the whole world to see. (There wasn't anyone around but your get the point.) The awesome part of it was my first reaction....."I look different....I like it!"  I'm sure that I had a smile on my face the rest of the run.  I felt confident. I am sure my stride even changed. It was almost a relief of sorts. 
I know that things are changing and moving and leaving.  I pray that they continue.  I'm always busy with challenging others to do this or that.  So with my Shadow Revelation we are going to be going on vacation.  My goal is to actually allow hubby to take pictures with me in them.  Yeap, actually allow it and not avoid it.  I am sure that I will have my critical moments but none the less, pictures will be made. 
What about you?  What do you avoid because you don't like this or that?  What are you missing out on because you don't like this or that?  Feel free to share!  We can encourage one another. 

Game On,
Pam

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