Ever had one?
Ever had that moment when the Lord speaks quietly to your heart?
That moment when it's so real, you wonder if anyone else heard it?
That moment when you realize what just happened and you are moved to tears?
Yeah, that just happened!
Well, if you know me at all, you know I love running. I love races. I love the adrenaline rush and the preparations as well. There is something about all of it that is hard to describe and put into words.
As most of you know I started running so my friend, Michelle, would just let it go but little did I know how much I would LOVE IT!!!! This past weekend I was texting with her and found out she and Nick, her son, were returning to Myrtle Beach to run the Dasanti Half Marathon. Oh the memories that came flooding!!
Saturday, Kaleb, my 9 year old ran his first race of 1/2 mile and did great! He experienced all of the adrenaline and rush of such an experience. My heart wanted so much to be back in the scene of running!! That afternoon, I was playing around and found a hairstyle I wanted to try and it was something a Facebook Friend has. I was looking at her pictures and there it was!!!!!!! When she had a different hair style she is the spitting image of Lynn Marie. I almost dropped my phone. I was just amazed. Of course when you see things like that it just brings more memories flooding back.
Lynn-Marie is no longer here because she is enjoying the glory of Heaven. We had a "weird" relationship as some would call it. We always called it a "God thing" because it was. (That's another story). Seeing this picture, Kaleb running, Michelle running, Nick running, it came to a point this morning. After really struggling to get back into running and using EVERY excuse in the book it all made sense.
I would say I would run, find a reason.
Weather.
To Busy.
I need new shoes.
Bo has to work.
I'm tired
I even signed up for one and didn't go.
I realized this morning......
I haven't run, not because of these reasons. I haven't run BECAUSE, Lynn-Marie isn't here.
You see, EVERY conversation we would have would be about after her treatment we would run together. After her Bone Marrow Transplant we would run a race together to celebrate. That never happened because the Lord had other plans. I ran on the treadmill a time or two but never ran any further.
This morning, I listened to conversations about the race this weekend and more races coming up. I returned to my office in the quiet He spoke. "It's time to get back in the race". So with tears, excitement, nerves, release of the sorrow, I will hit the road this weekend. It may only be a mile but it will be a start and then I will find a race. I will run it for closure. I will run it to celebrate.
Just wanted to share. It has been a POWERFUL morning!!!!!!
Sometimes we just need to be quite!!!
Coach Pam
Phil 3:14